Title:	hello again, lj.
Date:	2009-08-11 @ 15:56
Security:	public
Mood:	bored

Been too long since i last posted here. Am here because Blogger has failed me. Lousy! Does wordpress ever fail? If not ima switch to Wordpress!
 

I was packing my shoe cabinet a few days ago, and these are my shoes.
Got rid of more than half. Not much left. Time to buy new shoes! /slaps self

And check out my new book.





 

I have to blog because i'm boring myself to death at home, trying to complete start on my HL324 essay.
I've come to the conclusion that Thurs and Fris off aren't very good actually, especially if you need to be stukc at home doing work, because that means 4 straight days of being grounded at home in weak attempts to clear workload.

So next semester i shall work at half week breaks instead humph.

The whole world is writing essays ahaha msn nicksf friends, blogs, etc. Some people like to tell their virtual mates how many essays and how many words they gotta write, maybe because to them, the ability to churn out decent 3000 word essays validate their intelligence. Oh well, look around you. Who isn't writing 2000-3000 essays?

I'm been blog-surfing alot, and hence, feeding my vacation dreams. Everyone is on holiday or exchange! Why am i stuck here in Singapore? Sulks. Sigh, i know why.

May i ask, all of you reading this, what really matters to you now? I'm asking because last night i realised that most of the things that mattered to me in the past do not matter anymore. I no longer fight hard to retain what i have or to recover lost ground. Is this part of growing up, perhaps a shift in preoccupations?

What matters to me now is health, family and erm money. Haha, which is why i'm taking saving plans and tuition jobs.

The semester is ending, this means assignment deadlines and exams are looming nearer. But this semester feels a little different because i seek to do what i enjoy and not be bothered so much by grades. That means i pick texts that i like and ignore those that i don't. That means i study when i feel like it and i chillout when i don't. Luckily for me, my present state of mind is: study. Because i don't have much time left as a student. Knowledge is empowerment, i really agree. At least i feel smarter lah after i think about issues from the texts.

Yes i was just ranting in order to get myself into research mode.

Need.to.find.freaking.secondary.resources.online.and.fast.


 

Thank God for supportive parents who secretly reached SSDC earlier then my test time and hid themselves so i won't feel the pressure. They were the first people i saw when i parked and got out of the car, full of anticipation,  followed by my instructor who beamed at me. =)

I'm still amazed at reading my instructor's sms: "14 points right? Call me after you finish watching video. Take a Q number for application of license before watching it okay." even before my tester told me i passed. Wow. When i asked him about it, he merely smiled and said "i taught you and you learnt well. I know you would pass on your first attempt one. Your tester very ngiao one, he normally let people pass with 18. 14 means you're quite good alr". My driving instructor rocks!!! Unce Yap who brings me out to lunch after lessons. I can never forget his assuring smile and his final beam of pride.

I want to remember moments today forever. From the weird guy seated beside me who sang aloud to himself while we were waiting for the testers to call upon us, to my parents' faces of anticipation (and my freaking fear then i'd fail without knowing why), to the numerous "yours is immediate failure ah" and "sorry, try again next time" from other testers to their testees in the testers' office, to the bangla who did not even undestand the tester when told that he had failed, and finally to the fact that only 1 other person watched the video with me. That means the rest failed. I saw a girl crying after she left the office, and my heart went out to her. Hers was an immediate failure because she mounted on a kerb. Really, the whole process is such an experience.

I must mention i felt like shooting the taxi driver who suddenly jam-breaked in front of me near SSDC when i was on the way back. The Indian lady was asking him smth outside the car with no signs of getting in, but she kept the car door slightly ajar. The old turtle of the taxi driver did not on his hazard lights, instead he on-ed his right signal. What would you have doe with you were me? KNS i was having a freaking test! i decided to wait loh because i had to break too soon to the taxi that i could not see the road infront. It was a 2 way road with one lane each. Somemore his right signal is on. KNS and i got 4 points because of it. =( But my instructor later told me, if i had overtaken and another vehicle is oncoming, or if he suddenly moves off (because of his right signal) i might have failed immediately. So 4 points is better than immediate failure. But still, OLD TURTLE. I just needed him to on his hazard light......